Less than 24 hours are left in 2007 at this point, and they can't pass quickly enough. Usually, I don't make New Year's Resolutions because I don't see the difference between making a change on one day or another. I don't put much stock in life changing because a clock chimed midnight. However, this year, I'm so desperate that I'll take anything.
2007 has tried to wrench every last drop of life out of me, and it's made quite the run. I've dealt with the bulk of it offline.... most of it personal enough, cuts that swipe so deep that I don't even have the desire to try and disguise them for the purposes of a blog. But I can sum it up in a few words. Tonight, I sit alone typing this in my house. A series of choices have put me here, and I know that. I'm just not happy with it, and the choices I've made to try to change that have left me even more alone. That, however, is another dissertation for another post.
That said, here's 2007 by the numbers:
2 - very important people in my life who moved away. And by moved away, I mean beyond week-end roadtrip distance.
5 - couples who got engaged
1 - amazingly fun wedding
1 - amazingly random wedding
4 - cupcakes that led to an awesome friendship
6 (at least) - fantabulous people to whom I've grown closer than I ever realized, and whom I should thank for helping me keep my sanity
2 - rooms repainted in my house as I searched for that sanity
25 - pairs of shoes now in my new organizer
3 - days it took me to clean out the two upstairs bedrooms so that I could have people over again
10 - out of town destinations I hit this year... I think.... destinations only, not states I flew over on the way
10 + the District - states I drove through in a U-Haul getting my friend to her new job
3 - days I spent in NYC trying to see an art exhibit that wasn't meant to be.
3 - hours spent at an amazing art exhibit here at home
1 - dance weekend organized
1 - family member's passing
3 - funerals attended
2 - jobs I still work
1 - Christmas ever spent alone in my lifetime, and this was it
1 - Midnight kiss I won't get on New Years Eve.
so many I can't count:
- unsolicited rude comments from strangers
- people who think they can run my life better than I can
- broken heart moments
- bad dreams
- sleepless nights
- pictures taken
- memories made
- memories relived
- hours spent trying to unravel my thoughts from their Gordian knot into a straight piece of mental twine
1 - person who made it all worth it
1 - person I want to spend next New Year's Eve with
So long, 2007. Here's to a better year ahead for all. Salute!